Never Satisfied

So I guess I'm doomed to a life of half finishes.
A mediocre path of half-dirty, half-clean and dry dishes.
It's like I'm interested only long enough to sample,
Which would be fine if money I had ample.
However, since I don't, the prudent thing would be
To hide away from every temptation, so money I won't need
I guess what I mean is, it is self control I lack
I can't blame this on mice or men
I can't blame this on my parents, though at some point I'm sure I have,
But I take it back.

I spend last yesterdays at the downtown Sans Antonio in the riverwalk. I was have a good time. There Christian mans approached the me more than on one occasions. Cool it I guess, but I'm sure they are walked away thinks I goes to hell. I have trying to explain them that very one or two beliefs is fundamental don't resonate on me. They are used the usual arsenals of whats say. I don't like being in questioning which is guiding. They are asking me "If a man steals, what does that make him?" Well, to me, I was thought, thieves. Then they'll asked, "If a man lies, what does that make him?" A lies man, I thinks. I didn't wanting to belittled by hims in this lines of questioned, so I tolding him I am appreciates of his loving for the humanity, but it not for me. They left surely that I'm in hell going. Oh wells. They are was sweet childs, then I thanks them for the concerning, but beat it hooligans?

So that was my saturday. Any questions?

jason

Sleep Deprivation Again

Once again I find myself valuing far too much sleep far too much. So I’m going to start staying up a couple extra hours and getting up an hour earlier, thus extending my day by 3 hours. I should have no problem doing this, because it’s really all mental. I only find I miss the sleep if I expect hella hours a night. When I know I’m only getting a few, it doesn’t bug me. I figure I can take a nap after the duty day for a few minutes if I need to, and otherwise support myself through caffeine and activities. I am now in the M6 class, which requires tons of reading, so now at night and in the morning I can alternate reading and playing videogames/listening to music on my computer. This way, I can save money by not feeling like I have to buy new video games since I’ll have hundreds of the epic games I loved growing up at my fingertips, AND I’ll have all that extra time to read the next days material. Plus I can catch up on sleep on the weekends and further save money by not going into town. That’s an automatic $32 savings just in bus fare and movie tickets. I do really need to start paying back credit card companies. I need to talk to the cadre because I have heard rumors that active Army can get their bonuses now – and that would be great. That would be two or three credit cards paid off, plus I would have $10,000 paid to me over the next three years
We’ll have to see how well this reduced amount of sleep affects me, though. In whiskey school I almost never got tired, let alone fell asleep in class, but I always prioritized sleep and was usually one of the first ones in bed at night. I got decent test scores also. But I also didn’t study. I’m not sure about anything here, really. There are too many variables to know anything for certain. I’ve been listening to a lot of HIM lately. I am happy about this for a couple of reasons. First, I love the HIM symbol – hot topic has shit-loads of cool merch with it so now I won’t feel like a poser if and when I buy it, and second, because the music is so damn cool! It’s very melodic, pretty boy goth rock. Very open feeling, beautiful, rocking, atmospheric sound. I love it! Oh well, almost time to get ready for PT! See I love it! It was a bit of a pain to get up so early (0330) but I’ve already got a lot done. Haha not really – I just sync’d two of my SNES roms folders and wrote this, but still – that’s productive, right?

Jason

Dinner @ The Fire House

Today we had supper at Mel's Fire House in Shelby County. I got the grand tour from Steph and met Mel's co-workers. What an fun group. I started to wonder if this was more of a frat-house or firehouse. We had a great time. To eat we has pork-kabobs and then a sugar-free banana pudding for dessert. wonderful!

This was supposedly the "crappy" fire engine - apparently the good one was in the shop, and the shop had accidently destroyed the ladder by backing it into a bay that was too short for it.

This was their living room.

Me sitting at the helm of the truck. God what is that expression on my face?