An Interesting Dream

Last night I dreamed that I was back in the house I grew up in in Estes Park, CO. This is not too unusual, as I often find myself in these beloved familiar settings. What was unique, however, was that I was interacting with my (what I understood to be) my younger self. I was psyched to be able to impart so much knowledge to him(me). I asked me about what my interests were, and I therefore placed his(my) age to be around 7th grade. This was because he was telling me about his interest in videography - and I got into this when I was around 12 or 13. I remember sharing several laughs with him, and I wanted to tell him about his future. I wanted to tell him that in his life (at least up to my age) he would not experience great tragedy, but life would not be easy spiritually or emotionally, due to his tumultuous family life. There was other things I wanted to say, but next I found myself in an elevator at some other building, still thinking of all the things I planned on sharing with him. But alas, I never did return to him. It's probably for the better. I remember thinking, "Boy, if I had been visited by my future self at that age, would I really know what to do with the information?" Likely not. It would surely be a thrill at the moment, and I would be exuding excitement for a while, but then as time went on, I'm sure I would revert to my normal state of complacency. Maybe this is why I don't experience anything 'supernatural' now. As much as I would love to visited by passed loved ones, angels, God herself, Jesus, or even E.T.'s, I'm probably not in the right state of mind to handle such an experience. This is my spiritual battle. Maybe I'm not meant to be spiritual. Maybe I'm supposed to be religious and go to church and read the bible and eat meat and fast food and watch TV and drink pop and cuss all the time and be racist and make enemies and support our troops and... man this makes me furious... Anyway. I don't believe in faith, but paradoxically, I do have faith that I am where I need to be and all things work together for the good of the universe, and even if I am to suffer (in any way), then it is what will make me a better being. I also had a dream I tried out for American Idol and had to leave, but Simon used physical force to stop me and BEGGED me to come to Hollywood